Taking a break.

Edit~I forgot to mention, most of the fighting was because I wanted to talk more/him to call me or something along those lines. I feel like he's punishing me.
He wants to take a break, not breakup he said, but not talk so we have some time to emotionally recharge since we've been fighting so much. Ok, I said. I hope this break energizes him enough to help me get over this. I'm going to completely lose it. I've already started, actually.
Thoughts from the Twisted mind of me.
"Its because he can't stand talking to me"
"I can't believe I'm so terrible he needs to take a break from me"
"I should end this relationship so I can starve myself to death in peace"
"It'll be doing both of us a favor if I just go die"
"Why can't he talk to me?"
"Why is he even still dating me? Maybe he just likes tormenting me with these kinds of things and the girl he really loves is there laughing about it with him"
"Maybe he's getting back at woman for what his EX did to him"
"I don't want to live if he doesn't love me, he's all I have, all my future has been rebuilt around him, before him my plan was to party and die before 30, should I go back to that plan?"
(seriously, in like 5th grade I'd already decided to become a prostitute to pay for the partying and drugs that would kill me before 30 so I didn't have to deal with getting old like the grandma who's mind I watched die long before her body stopped moving, dementia scares me more than burning alive, drowning, bleeding out, being eaten alive by acid, having my skin flayed off and organs shoved down my throat, or any other kind of death)
"How will I even be able to enjoy that now that he's made me want a kid and given me hope that I'll be able to sleep next to someone who cares every night"
"I'm so scared... what if he doesn't ever come back from this 'break'?"
"What if he just needs time to think of a way to break up with me?"