Yeah, I am. No, not like that (ok, only 'cause I'm dating... hush) I mean.. with my words. It's like all my inhabitions melt away while I'm talking to him. A lot like here, only it's different, you know? Because he has a direct affect on my life, he knows my friends and all that jaz. Anyway, we were talking and somehow it got onto his body (which everyone knows I worship) and I don't quite remember what was being said before this, but I said something like 'Just don't get fat' and then I was mortified, why had I said that? Of course I would still love him if he was fat, it's just that it's not.. you know, physically attractive... more bluntly, I can't imagine having sex with a fat person. I feel terrible thinking like this, because emotionally it wouldn't make a difference, or so I tell myself. It shouldn't, right? I have fat friends.. but I can't imagine dating or.. really touching any of them..
Matt has told me he wouldn't care if I got fat, when I said this though he said "I think I'd cut it out, I'd be so disgusted with myself" All I said was "We'll work out together" and he agreed, not like we hadn't already planned this, but it felt different this time.. I guess the 'so you'd feel the same?' thoughts were what did it.
I still wonder if he hasn't got a bit of an eating disorder himself.. he's just so understanding and he says things like that and he's not active and he's so skinny...
I read Purged the other night. Pretty awesome book, but the whole time I was wondering what she weighed, it was kinda distracting not knowing. Weird huh?
I want abs. Not like, super abs, just a hint..
I love reading "Purge"- it you're talking about the same book I'm thinking of (the barfers vs the starvers) ^^. I kind of feel the same way you do- emotionally it wouldn't make a difference if I was with a guy and he gained weight, but the thought of me being intimate with an overweight guy is a bit of a turn-off, you know? That's why I want to be thin- so no guy would ever consider me a "turn off."
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It's crazy but there is something so comforting about a man with a tummy. Not HUGE but just a little tummy to rub and lay on...
ReplyDeleteDD says the same to me but I would sooner die. Double standard!
Omg yesssss! Aaaaaaaaabssss!
ReplyDeleteI do like my guys to be fit, but with some cuddle padding on them. Nothing more uncomfortable than bumping hipbones during sex. OUCH!! D:
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At least you didn't say what I said once.
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You two are so sweet together! I it's okay to admit that physically you like skinny people. More people should be honest about their preferences. And you still love him as a person but physical attraction is a little different sometimes.
ReplyDeleteLove you! How is the piercing healing up?
Lol, I've never liked skinny guys. I'd prefer chubby to skinny, although muscley is best. :D
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A hint of abs would be lovely. And I couldn't picture myself ENJOYING sex with a fat person, but I know I'd love my boyfriend even if he got heavy. (Which he won't because he's disordered too, but still.)
ReplyDeleteI tried browsing Purge and I gotta say, the whole "barfers vs starvers" thing really turned me off to it. But if it's as good as you say, maybe I'll have to try it again. :)