I'm sorry

I keep getting on here and reading blogs, but I don't know what to say to anyone.
Just here to say I still love you guys & have not been shipped off anywhere.

I'm feeling terrible and I don't really know why or whats wrong but I'm scared to see Matt tomorrow because I'm afraid I won't be the me he knows, I mean, he's heard about me losing it online, but he's never seen it. Please let me be happy tomorrow.. I'm so worried I'm actually feeling sick.